Wednesday, April 21, 2010
on the wings of time...
like the new look? im starting to have a thing for autumn-themed stuff. strange huh?so here i am once again, unleashing the wrath of my troubled mind. oh im fine, no worries. its just the prolonged results of not keeping myself occupied. looking seemingly peaceful, a hurricane storm of opposing thoughts between postive and negative brews within me whenever there arent any better uses for my head. one of the main reason why i detest alone time...much have happened since ive last talked to you, dear blog. the biggest deal for now is the fact that im back in school in year 4 when i shouldve gratuated the previous semester. now, i need to strive to get a B grade for everything just to get out of this shithole. and this is what you get when you give everything away and leaving nothing for yourself, benjy. talk about slow death... thank GOD its just 1 semester and not a whole year. breathe, boy. you can do this!ive given quite a huge part of myself up for dance during my time away too. nothing new, i know... but this is especially so since im starting to teach classes on a regular basis. which is like...everyday? im not being paid much and it aint exactly convenient to travel from woodlands to lavender everyday but hey, teaching is fun, people! starting to enjoy sharing my knowledge with the little ones and seeing progress in them. the sense of satisfaction is indispensable! guess i'll be doing this for awhile, until a better deal comes along maybe?besides passion, 1 reason why im squeezing the last bit of my life outta me just to teach classes at night despite my hectic school schedule during the day time is the urgent need for the bucks. im turning 20 and im starting to feel the pinch from taking money from my folks everyday. time to stop taking things for granted, benjy boy.a number of competitions/events have passed recently, singapore best dance crew and singapore dance delight vol. 1 being the most memorable ones. nope, didnt win any of it but both are equally enriching experiences. at the end of the day, so as long as something is gained, we are still winners in our own rights. -pats back-recently, a new addition has been added to my life, completing a huge fragment of it which used to be empty. sometimes, less is more and i dont deny it. but in this case, its vice-versa. it depends on good/bad times, i guess. regardless, the brain can never rest like it did before. inevitable for a heart that has been toyed around with in several occasions. injured, the heart can never function like it did before. that is why the brain has to be there for it, protecting it, never letting it fall again. oh, noble and sensitive brain...hopefully, i wont accidentally take a long break and forget about you all over again, bloggie. promise ill try my best to talk to you frequently despite my mentally, physically and emotionally draining everyday life. afterall, i do need you now the most... the brain needs something to share its burden with.thanks for reading, anonymous. :)
life's a liar;
4/21/2010 03:07:00 PM
it's never as simple as it seems.
