Monday, February 28, 2005
done...
once again...it has ended...y...???coz i cldnt stand it anymore~!!!dis posting is goin 2 b damn emo...so if u ppl tink dat wat im gona say is nothin bt fuckin crap dan i suggest u all juz buzz off...i shall start nw...after it ended....i tout dat me bein wif her was all bcoz of my blindness...bt i was lucky.....2 bump in2 such a nice person...bt she was nt da rite 1....bt nw...i tink dat i was reli blind...tinking back......i feel damn fooled......damn....freaking fooled...sumtimes i wonder...if shes makin tings clear 2 me or she is tryin 2 make me feel guilty abt absolutely NOTHIN...izit my freaking bloody fault dat im gettin all paranoid...???there is no tragedy wifout a disaster n u NOE IT......bt u still insist in shootin back at me...its lyk tryin 2 console sum1 hu has loz everythin bt at da same time...hurt dat person even more.....all u do after we hav a quarrel is protect ur fucking face n nt consider bout hw i feel...mayb u were juz tryin 2 make me feel better...bt let me tell u...u hav NEVA makde me feel better after all dos bloody quarrels...i wonder y i insisted in carrying on da relationship...u guyz were damn bloody rite....im STUPID...tanx 2 u guyz...ive woken up...i will b nothin without u guyz...its nt ur fault dat ur alwaex wif guyz huh...???well...i suppose ur born 2 b surrounded wif guyz....guess u will juz hav 2 accept ur fate....n wats dat shit abt u havin a fucking prob bout me wif gals....???ur damn childish......u noe dat...???dey r juz frenz 2 me...nothin else....i did nt hav a bloody crush on dem or stead wif any of dos gals dat i frequently hang out wif...u tink back bout wat u did n compare da situation 1st b4 accusing me can...??if u guyz r wonderin hw u ended.....DAT was hw...i did nt wan 2 end it...even thou i already hav no more felings 4 her.......4 i noe dat she will b sad...bt dat incident wich happened juz YESTERDAY...triggered da break-up...n i hope dat u will STP blaming sharon......she has absolutely NOTHIN 2 do wif my decision....lk in2 urself b4 lookin in2 others......guyz readin dis...i noe dat da GUYZ readin dis...u all mite tink dat im bein a big bastard fucker....bt i hav my damn reasons 4 wateva ive done....ur nt me...u duno wats goin on...so juz SHUT UP N FUCK OFF...here i wld lyk 2 tell every1....n at da same time...help u 2 ANNOUNCE...IM DA HEARTLESS BASTARD DAT BROKE WIF HER...IM DA BLOODY HEARTLESS BASTARD DAT HURT HER...gt dat in2 ur HEAD ppl...dats all i hav 2 say...TANX 4 READING~!!!=]
life's a liar;
2/28/2005 05:10:00 AM
it's never as simple as it seems.
