Thursday, May 13, 2010
reliving oliver twist.
when pleas for the most simple, basic stuff that our heart and mind deem as neccesities seem to be in vain, we get withdrawn. afraid to voice out any possible increment. afraid to ask for more...
and this is all the evil work of expectations.
ok, its not all that bad. expectations are there to help us reach for goals and look forward to stuff, enabling us to have hope for a better tomorrow. however, when it comes to
people-people, it can turn ugly... but who is to blame, really? humans are naturally hideous creatures. the human mind, to be exact. and expectations are the stools of the flesh they have feasted on. unlike the desire for cigarettes and sex, it cannot be controlled. they are there for something. for a reason and id like to think, for a better tomorrow?
like the hearts way of telling the mind that something is missing...
when the "creature" holds its bowels for too long, the stools will be bigger when they finally defecate the next time the heart and mind opens up for the natural process to occur. and this is when the body gets too worn out from serving as a diversion...
one of main reasons why i love dance so much... if only i could dance non-stop without limitations getting the better of me. than, i would be truly, truly happy...
i really hate alone time... im never myself when i'm by myself... people make ME. and you cant make something when you dont know something...
at this moment in time, that is a very sad fact...
despite all that has been said and done, i am not void of hope.
when the one who brought you up unconditionally before you could even say "i love you" to another has heaven's door in sight...
when the ones who walked through the same "door" with you would've given you it all, yet paths differ too much for that to happen. too much for "i love you" to be materialized. and straight ahead is the only way to go...
when the one you chose to say "i love you" to makes you believe in what you're saying. so much so, you fear for your own good...
yes. when so much is at stake. being hopeful is not an option...
hope is everything...
it did something for oliver.
it will do something for me too. right...?
life's a liar;
5/13/2010 02:34:00 PM
it's never as simple as it seems.
