Tuesday, May 18, 2010
breakaway with tattered wings.
i gotta stop doing this to myself every night...it just isn't fair...what happened to my strong sense of rationality?this thing i'm becoming; what's governing it?stop it, Benjy. not now. not when your family and friends need you.breathe, and focus. weakness is not an excuse... you MUST NOT let people do this to you...it is not worth it and you know it.it is that easy for people to trample all over you with their artillery of harsh words...yet getting up from it may seem nowhere near the possible.don't cripple yourself like that...and again, not when your family and friends need you...you do not need sympathy, it is under-rated. you need to understand.you need to comprehend.and you need to think...you need to step back down on solid earth to see things as they really are...stop living in the lie you thought was real.you were deceived...not by anybody but yourself.and it hurts.that is how we learn as babies, right?like when i was a baby...and i learned...breakaway. you must breakaway from this, Benjy. put a cross on it and move on.and carry with you the scar to constantly remind yourself
to be careful with who you give your heart to...PS. on your side. i just hope that you are truly happy now, and not in the plight that i am in. than maybe, at least, all these struggles i'm putting myself through, will not be for nothing...
life's a liar;
5/18/2010 10:14:00 AM
it's never as simple as it seems.
