Monday, September 15, 2008
through the devils bend.
quite dramatic a post down there huh? its really amazing with what your fingers can come up with no matter what time it is and i must say, my efforts were not in vain. heaven was indeed away for quite some time, but it sure hasnt lost its touch.
in some way, ive received an enlightenment. ive figured that the main cause of all my self-induced emotional torment...
yes...self-induced...
...is the long hours ive spent at home, with nothing to do and the thoughts, free to wander into the deeper recesses of that one dangerous mind. thus, me being able to come up with things no busy mind is free enough to comprehend nor generate.
taking that and my humanity into consideration , ive decided that if i cant change society, i shall change me. since everyone is so darn busy pursuing they're individual dreams and ambitions, i should do myself justice by simply fitting in. and maybe now i have an excuse for being oblivious to the chaos that reality aimlessly inflicts on others? boy, i can just feel the excitement. mean? you have no idea...
you see. id love to be a support to anyone i feel who needs it aka friends, family, loved ones etc. anyone who would go almost all out to be that somebody that will in time give them an overwhelming sense of accomplishment, definitely fits the bill. BUT...
theres always a but to everything, my love. dont you see?
...to be taken advantage of that patience you try so hard to maintain..do you, dear reader, know how that feels? i believe you do.
so heres the deal. right now, im set on taking on 4 major dance projects revolving around this month till november. 2 of which are the 2 competitions, code:edge and danz war. the other 2 is actually just 1 big production, but ill be with both hip-hop and modern, each a 10 min long item plus a finale piece which will be about the same duration. hectic? yeah baby. crazy? hardly!
more so, i worry these might not be enough...ps. and i hope you're happy now. because i am. look, im smiling...=')
life's a liar;
9/15/2008 11:51:00 PM
it's never as simple as it seems.
