Tuesday, June 22, 2010
reality triumphs.
i was bored and decided to read-up on some astrology. came across this which hit me really hard. yet sadly, they're all true. freakishly accurate stuff, i must say.welcome to my imperfections...Imagine living on the fastest roller coaster in the world and that will give you some idea of what it is like for the Gemini/Horse when he/she is in love. These people can get hurt very badly as they have an almost naive sense of love. They believe in fairy tales and dream of living happily ever after with their beloved. As we all know the real world just isn’t like that and as a consequence the Gemini/Horse really does suffer a lot of emotional turmoil and pain. Which is a shame, as these people really do have so much to give in a relationship; all they need is to find the right person. Once they have then this is when the Gemini/Horse really comes into their own. They are loyal and protective and will go to the ends of the earth for the ones they love as when these people fall in love it is for life and although they may be partial to the odd bit of flirting there certainly won’t be any affairs going on. I don’t think anyone can ever really understand the depth to this person’s emotion; they are hypersensitive to everything and are emotionally very high maintenance. They want you to be there 100% of the time but then if you are they wish you weren’t, then when you go they want you back! It’s all very confusing. The Gemini really gives the poor Horse a hard time, being so changeable and flighty these people spend the whole time keeping their emotions in check; they feel something all the time and it can literally wear them out. This person needs to feel secure so they can truly be themselves, to the Gemini Horse the words ‘I love you’ mean so much and this can lead to them being truly hurt by the wrong sort of people whose only interest is in what they can get. Gemini/Horses love surprise dates, the love people to be unique in their ideas as this means that someone has really thought about them. When it is a loved one’s birthday or at Christmas time the Gemini/Horse will go out of their way to make the love of their life smile, to this person that is what life’s all about.wow, guess im really a hassle huh? oh well, it's through hassles that we see who are patient enough to stay by you whether rain or shine. so as long as we have imperfections, we will forever remain unique. and as long as i don't start growing extra eyes, nose and mouth, i actually quite enjoy being unique.
you should too. :))
PS. i disagree with the 'want you to be there 100% of the time' part though... =/
life's a liar;
6/22/2010 10:59:00 PM
it's never as simple as it seems.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
with a stick and the sand.
different people have different ways of governing their lives. whether we like it or not, we just hafta find something good in their ways and live with it. how else are we gonna get some company around here, right? accomodation is really all it takes. anything less, you'll get unneccesary scrutiny. anything more......don't see how that works but ill get back to you on that one.
how do i govern mine than? well, i like to draw imaginary lines all over me; in whatever i say, in whatever i do, in whatever i think. that way, we can know how much further we will go before actually crossing over to the other side, which can turn the whole scenario upside-down, or the right-side-up. just one step across that line and the clock already starts ticking...
and so, many people persist in believing that if you want something, you move on from wherever you are and just keep moving, ignoring whatever mess that might have been left uncleared in their shadows. well, that's perfect if it is just them and the mess. but who really walks alone these days? people who only save enough space in the mirror for their own reflection? truth is, nobody is really alone in anything and somebody will always be out there to share some part of what we call 'the burden'.
so if you were to ever look back, and look hard enough. you might see a special someone actually slowly clearing up after you, hoping you'll help out. especially when this someone is no less than just another worn-out victim. so what would you do than? when you happen to turn behind, looking at this person eye-eye?
charge on ahead in your pursuit of self-obsession, and cross the fine line of persistence, over to plain cruelty?
or help them, and help you? so that you may never have to turn behind to see such a sight ever again?
well, its just what i think. what do you think??? :))
life's a liar;
6/13/2010 08:33:00 PM
it's never as simple as it seems.
Monday, May 24, 2010
a 2nd life.
currently, i feel like i just died yesterday and got reincarnated in the morning. except that i don't exactly forget all that happened. they just suddenly do not matter anymore. so i guess that's just as good as "forgetting".i am not living with any regrets, though, for i knew all along that my instincts would never fail me. being Benjy, hope/trust overrides instincts. i disobeyed my instincts and it simply taught me a lesson. funny how i thought it would be a tough lesson to get through when a good night sleep and having good people around was all it took to have me passing with flying colors.looking back at the past life, it makes me proud. some call it stupidity, but i call it "combat training" i pitted myself against reality to do everything within my power to make a person happier unconditionally, despite knowing that this someone will not truly see it nor appreciate it and i might even end up falling hard from it.
this revealed a gift in me and from God; the gift of giving.having found this gift, how can my 2nd life not be any more meaningful? sure, there is still some work to be done before we proceed. waking up in a wrecked-up garden flooded by weeds and parasites ain't exactly anyone's idea of a perfect start. clearing these "life-suckers", however, not only brings new greens but also brings new hope that no darkness in life is permanent, nor are they controlled by anything other than ourselves. the lawn mower is there, so get cracking!a clearer, wider picture is revealed now. one weed-free garden opens our eyes to a world full of places which seek our attention. places with people who are in need for whatever we have to offer. some appreciate, some don't. some return, some simply keep taking. but everyone walk different paths and have different priorities. we all have a different variety of can-s, can't-s, want-s, don't want-s, need-s, don't need-s etc etc. and the list goes on and on and on. with humans being such individualistic creatures, it's never fair to impose personal expectations on anyone. besides, we've got the one almighty abundant gift, so what's the problem? :)"when you're given a 2nd chance for anything in life, you've gotta go all the way."
life's a liar;
5/24/2010 11:58:00 AM
it's never as simple as it seems.
